The enigmatic Australian, whose outbursts on the pitch often make him a divisive figure among tennis fans, has always been candid about his complicated relationship with the sport.
Kyrgios admitted he ‘hated’ his life, but says the global lockdown in 2020 due to the coronavirus pandemic helped him start to work through some of those battles after he was ‘out of control’.
“I was abusing a lot of alcohol, drugs and it got out of control. Now I barely drink, I literally drink a glass of wine at dinner. It was the kind of thing that I had to clean up a bit then build my relationship with my family and get back to healthier habits like the basics; like eating, sleeping well, trying to train a bit more and that’s it.
“I think Covid helped me a lot with that.”
During his darkest moments, Kyrgios says he felt like he “let people down all the time”.
He says he sometimes believed the people he met “really didn’t care who I was as a human being, more like just a tennis player…the crazy tennis player.”
He added: “I felt worthless to be honest, I didn’t feel comfortable, I hated my life at one point.
“I was cutting, I was burning, it was just fucking shit. It was so dark I liked it too, like asking people to do it and stuff. What doesn’t kill you makes you a stranger (and stronger ). I’m still a little cooked.”
Kyrgios says he is deeply affected by the abuse he has suffered on social media over the years.
The Australian Open men’s doubles winner, born to a Greek father and a Malay mother, has repeatedly revealed how often he has to deal with racist abuse on social media.
“I deal with it all the time,” he explains. “People just think raising a finger or abusing someone or making racist comments is okay these days, and I just don’t think that’s okay at all. Now just use that as motivation , but that’s easier said than done.
“People talk about you and do bad things. They don’t get anything out of what you accomplish. You just have to try to ignore it and use it as motivation and hang on to the people around you who send you positive energy all the time.”
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